So, lately, I have been having a really hard time w/ my self-esteem. I have always struggled with this- but it has been a big issue for me lately and it has started to wear me down. It has gotten to the point where I can't pass a mirror w/o thinking something negative about how I look. Jon has been a big help to me with this and his support means so much to me.
I don't want to get all depressing or anything. I am happy and my life is good. This is just something that I have always struggled with. It's my trial if you will. I know that in time I will be able to overcome this- I just have to keep working on it.
Jon sent this to me the other day and I wanted to share it on here. I know that many women struggle w/ body image (esp. w/ the media these days) and self confidence- but this touched me quite a bit.
PS: I have been able to go to the track after work this week so far and I've run a little over 2 miles each time. I'm getting there- slowly but surely :-)
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
This is Wanda.
She lives in my living room and is quiet as can be! She watches Gilmore Girls with me, keeps me company when I am bored and sweats right along with me.
Haha, okay no really... We bought this bike recently and I love it! It in no way takes the place of my running or anything like that- but sometimes when Jon is busy with school work and I've cleaned up after dinner and done everything that needed to get done and it's too dark outside to run by myself.... I need to do something! Jon usually takes up most of the living room when he's doing school work or grading papers- understandable- we used to do it together- we'd each have half of the room for all of our books and papers. So- that makes is hard to do any sort of cardio video at night. Now, instead of sitting around- I can pedal along w/ whatever it's on the TV or I can read my book while I do it. It's pretty fun and even if i'm not being very intense with it- i'm still moving.
Also as an update- we've been soo busy and running hasn't really been an option for the last 2 weeks or so. However, I have started bringing my running gear to work and after work I go to the BYU indoor track. Not my favorite place.. but when it's too dark or raining- it's my best option.. and it's free. You can't go wrong with that. The only thing that stinks is that I don't have my Zune. I had to send it to Microsoft to get fixed. It's okay- not everything is going to always work perfect. It just won't fully charge or connect to the computer so I can add songs to it. It was like that the first time I used it. Then I was able to add songs a few times. Whenever I was able to- I would add as much as I could before it disconnected. It was very weird. I think they'll understand when they get it- I don't have half of the storage filled and as it is- it's only 8 gigs. Oh well, it'll be back soon!!